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im home sick :(





ROU7Y;** calling?! AGAIN?

"Uh, nouny 7abebte yallah go to school!" he literally pushed me out of his car.

What the hell was going on? shisalfa? before i even had the chance to turn around and ask him to explain why he was in such a hurry, he drove off. khalas, i thought to myself that khalas this is enough shit and i need to fix it.

while i was stuck in my little world of thoughts, i accidentally walked into 7amoud. remember? 7amoud was mad at me because of barrak and didnt want anything to do with me.

"Sorry" i gave him a sad smile

"Its okay" he was very cold. it killed me to be talked to like that by someone who apparently cared about me a lot. why was i losing everyone?

the tears gathered up in my eyes and i looked down

"Noora?" i ignored him. 7amoud knew me better than my family did so if i talked, he would have known i was about to burst into tears "Noora 7abebte are you okay?"

i dont know what came over me at that moment but i literally jumped on 7amoud and gave him the longest hug ever. and even when i wanted to let go, he wouldnt let me. we just stood outside school hugging each other like idiots wile everyone watched. i didnt care. as long as i still have 7amoud as a friend.

"Noora im sorry i overreacted.. i just.. i love you.. more than a friend, less than a sister, more than anyone could ever love anyone else." okay so i knew 7amoud had some feelings for me. bas WOAH love? HELLO DRAMA!

"7amoud baby u know i have a boyfriend, i dont think it is right for u to have such feelings. i mean, i am practically engaged!" you know, because barrak kept feeding me hope that we would end up married.

7amoud gave me such a sad look, i knew i crushed him, and it killed me. suddenly he looked up and smiled at me "Nooro, lets ditch school, male khilq Ms.Cary"

"YAY! okay! :D" we went for a drive and ended up getting breakfast at johnny rockets in marina.

it was so random, but it was one of the best days of senior year, honestly.

"Nooro, does he treat u well?"

i told 7amoud everything that ever happened between us EXCEPT for the physical part of our relationship. and while i was talking about barrak, i noticed that i am probably the worlds biggest idiot. obviously rou7y wasn't his mother. and obviously he has someone else on the side. why was i so blind?

i started crying, like a maniac, in the middle of johnny rockets and 7amoud paid the bill and we went to the car.

"Noora 7abebte what are you going to do now?" he was concerned, i could tell he cared a lot and not just because i was gonna be single but because i was going to be free of someone that didnt even love me.

i took out my phone, completely ignoring 7amoud's question and send a message to barrak.

"Have fun with rou7ek because i am officially done with this relationship. i hope she makes you happy. :)"